Why was Sapatnekar so upset with Sai Baba in Chapter 48?

Sapatnekar was deeply distressed because every time he approached Sai Baba for darshan and bowed, Baba would sternly rebuke him with the words "Chal Hat," meaning "Go away." This was particularly painful for him as he observed Baba treating everyone else with "extreme love." As described in Chapter 48, Sapatnekar felt completely singled out, lamenting that while others experienced a "daily Diwali of joy," his forehead was marked only with rejection. He agonized over the cause, wondering if it was due to past karma, his own sins, or his initial argumentative and doubtful disposition towards Baba. This constant dismissal left him sleepless and unable to enjoy food or water.