Why was Sapatnekar so upset, and what did he resolve to do about it?

Sapatnekar was extremely distressed because he felt singled out for Sai Baba's displeasure. While other devotees experienced a "daily Diwali of joy," he was consistently met with the rebuke "Chal Hat" whenever he bowed. As recounted in Chapter 48, this caused him immense pain, making him question his past deeds and sins. He speculated that his initial doubtfulness about Baba might be the reason. Despite his turmoil, which caused him to lose his appetite and sleep, he made a powerful personal determination. He resolved to stay right there in Shirdi, with a steady mind, until he finally received Baba's grace, refusing to leave disappointed.