Why was Sapatnekar so distressed by his interactions with Sai Baba, and what did he decide to do about it?

Sapatnekar was deeply distressed because every time he went for Sai Baba's darshan and bowed, Baba would rebuke him with the words "Chal Hat" (Go away). He felt singled out, observing that Baba treated others with extreme love while he alone received this constant rejection. As described in Chapter 48, he felt as though others experienced a "daily Diwali of joy" while he was left with only pain, leading him to wonder if it was due to his past sins or his initial doubtfulness towards Baba. Despite his anguish, he made a firm personal determination to not leave Shirdi, resolving to stay with a steady mind until he finally received Baba's grace.