Why was Sapatnekar so distressed by his initial interactions with Sai Baba?

Sapatnekar was deeply distressed because each time he went for Darshan and bowed, Sai Baba would rebuke him with the words "Chal Hat." As described in Chapter 48, this made him feel uniquely singled out, as he saw Baba treating others with great love. He lamented that while others experienced a "daily Diwali of joy," his own encounters were filled with rejection. This constant rebuff made him question his past deeds and sins, leading to a state where food and water tasted bad and he was sleepless, feeling that Baba was deeply displeased with him personally.