Dev's disappointment stemmed from a combination of expectation and a critical memory lapse, as detailed in Chapter 40. Having invited Baba with great love, he was anticipating a clear, undeniable 'experience' of Baba's presence. When this didn't happen in the way he imagined, he felt Baba's promise had been broken. Upon learning the truth, Dev felt "very dejected" and lamented his own pride and lack of attention. He admitted his crucial mistake, stating, "Only one word of Baba's—'When I come for the meal, two others will come with me'—I forgot to pay attention to that." His failure to connect the Sanyasi with Baba was also compounded by the fact that the Sanyasi had visited on a prior, unrelated occasion for fundraising, which created a "delusion" in his mind.
Why was Dev so quick to blame Sai Baba for not coming to his Udyapan? Didn't Baba explicitly say he would come with two others, and didn't a Sanyasi show up with two others?
📖 Chapter 40