Why was Balasaheb Deo unable to regularly read the Dnyaneshwari despite his strong desire?

Balasaheb Deo had a great desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, but as Chapter 41 recounts, he consistently faced obstacles that prevented him from maintaining this practice. Even when he took a three-month leave from work, he found himself reading other books but could not start the Dnyaneshwari. When he did try, doubts would surface in his heart, making the reading feel superficial and preventing him from developing a true love for it. His efforts were so unsuccessful that he couldn't even manage to read five verses, or Ovis, each day with any regularity, causing him great distress.