Why was Balasaheb Deo struggling to read the Dnyaneshwari even though he really wanted to?

Balasaheb Deo had a great desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, but as Chapter 41 explains, he faced persistent obstacles. Whenever he took the book in hand, doubts would arise in his heart, causing the reading to feel superficial and preventing him from developing a deep love for it. This was particularly frustrating because he could read other books regularly without issue. The text notes that despite his strong intent, his resolution to read the Dnyaneshwari would not hold without interruption, and even the goal of reading five verses daily did not happen with regularity, leaving him distressed.