Why was Balasaheb Deo struggling to read the Dnyaneshwari, and what was the internal conflict he faced?

Balasaheb Deo had a great desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, but he consistently faced obstacles that prevented him from establishing a regular practice. As mentioned in Chapter 41, even when he took three months' leave from work to rest at home, he read other books but could not manage to read the Dnyaneshwari. The core of his struggle was internal; whenever he took the book in hand, doubts would arise in his heart. This caused his reading to remain superficial, and he was unable to develop a genuine love or deep connection with the text. Even his resolution to read just five verses daily failed to materialize with any regularity, leaving him distressed and unable to fulfill his spiritual aspiration.