Why was Balasaheb Deo so frustrated with his attempts to read the Dnyaneshwari?

Balasaheb Deo was deeply frustrated because despite his strong desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, he was constantly thwarted by various obstacles. Chapter 41 explains that unlike other books he could read regularly, his resolution to read the Dnyaneshwari would not hold without interruption. This issue persisted even when he was on leave from work. The text mentions that whenever he took the book in hand, doubts would arise in his heart, causing the reading to remain superficial and preventing him from developing a true love for it. His inability to maintain the practice, even when he reduced his goal to just five verses daily, caused him significant distress.