Why was Balasaheb Deo having such a hard time reading the Dnyaneshwari, even though he really wanted to?

Balasaheb Deo had a great desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, but as described in Chapter 41, he faced persistent obstacles that prevented him from doing so. Whenever he took the book in hand, some doubt would arise in his heart, which made the reading feel superficial and kept him from developing a true love for it. This was a unique problem, as he could read other books regularly. Even when he took a three-month leave from work, he could not fulfill his wish to read the Dnyaneshwari. The struggle was so profound that he couldn't even manage to consistently read five verses, or Ovis, each day, leaving him quite distressed.