Why was Balasaheb Deo having such a hard time reading the Dnyaneshwari, and what did he decide to do about it?

Balasaheb Deo had a profound desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, but he consistently faced obstacles that prevented him from doing so. Chapter 41 explains that unlike other books he could read regularly, his resolution for the Dnyaneshwari would always fail. Even during a three-month leave from work, the reading did not happen. When he tried, doubts would surface in his heart, making the reading feel superficial and preventing him from developing a love for the text. Frustrated by his inability to even read five verses a day, Deo made a firm resolution. He decided to surrender the effort entirely to Sai Baba, vowing, as mentioned in Chapter 41, that he would only begin reading the Dnyaneshwari when Sai Himself gave the order and the love to do so without confusion.