Why was Balasaheb Deo having such a difficult time reading the Dnyaneshwari, even when he had a strong desire to do so?

Balasaheb Deo had a great desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, but as Chapter 41 explains, he consistently faced obstacles that prevented him from maintaining this practice. Whenever he would take the book in hand, doubts would arise in his heart, which made his reading superficial and prevented him from developing a true love for the text. Despite his strong intentions and taking a three-month leave from work, he found that even reading five verses daily was not happening with any regularity. This ongoing struggle was a source of distress for him, as his resolution would not reach completion.