Why did the author, Hemadpant, initially refuse to visit the saint Pir Maulana when he was a Magistrate in Bandra?

In Chapter 21, the author, Hemadpant, recounts his own experience to illustrate a point about good fortune. While he was the Magistrate in Bandra, a famous Siddha named Pir Maulana resided there. Despite being urged day and night by the saint's servant, Hemadpant refused to go for his vision. He admits that he had thoughts like, "Why should I go? Should I be pressured by others and lose my own prestige?" He later reflects that this reluctance was a sign of his own ill-luck standing in the way, stating that "One fears one's own shadow when ill-luck stands in the way." This personal story serves as an example of how one's own ego and lack of grace can prevent an encounter with a saint.