Why did Balasaheb Deo surrender his effort to read the Dnyaneshwari and decide to wait for Sai's command?

Balasaheb Deo's decision to surrender his personal efforts stemmed from repeated and demoralizing failure. Chapter 41 explains that despite his strong intent, his resolution to read the Dnyaneshwari would not hold without interruption. When he would take the book in hand, doubts would arise, making the reading feel superficial and loveless. After even failing to read a mere five verses daily with any regularity, he became distressed. Recognizing his own inability to succeed, he made a new rule for himself, placing his faith entirely at Sai's feet. He resolved to wait until Sai Himself gave the order and the love for the text, believing that was the only way his desire would be truly fulfilled.