Why did Balasaheb Deo struggle to read the Dnyaneshwari even though he could read other books without any problem?

Balasaheb Deo's struggle with the Dnyaneshwari was a peculiar internal obstacle, not a general inability to read. According to Chapter 41, while he could read other books regularly, a specific problem arose whenever he took the Dnyaneshwari in hand. The text states that doubts would surface in his heart, which prevented him from developing love for the scripture and made his reading feel superficial. This issue was so persistent that even during a three-month leave, when he had ample time, his desire to read the Dnyaneshwari was not fulfilled. The text suggests that the time for it simply had not come, despite his strong personal intent.