Why did Balasaheb Deo struggle so much with reading the Dnyaneshwari, and what did he decide to do about it?

Balasaheb Deo had a profound desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, but he consistently encountered obstacles that thwarted his efforts. According to Chapter 41, this struggle persisted even when he took a three-month leave, during which he read other books but could not maintain a routine with the Dnyaneshwari. The root cause was internal; whenever he took the book in hand, doubts would arise in his heart, which made the reading feel superficial and prevented him from developing a genuine love for the text. Feeling distressed after even failing to read five verses daily, he made a firm resolve. He decided to surrender his own efforts and vowed to only begin reading the sacred text when his Guru, Sai Baba, personally gave him the order to do so.