Why did Balasaheb Deo's attempts to read the Dnyaneshwari fail, even when he took a three-month leave?

According to Chapter 41, Balasaheb Deo's attempts to read the Dnyaneshwari failed due to a combination of recurring obstacles and internal doubts. The text states that even when he took a three-month leave and went to his home in Ponda to rest, the opportune time for reading it never came. While he managed other tasks and read other books, the Dnyaneshwari remained unread. A key reason provided is that whenever he took the Dnyaneshwari in hand, "some doubts would arise in the heart." This caused his reading to remain superficial and prevented him from developing the inner love and enthusiasm necessary to maintain the practice regularly.