Why did Balasaheb Deo feel it was necessary to wait for a direct order from Sai Baba to read the Dnyaneshwari, even when encouraged by others?

Balasaheb Deo felt it was necessary to wait for a direct order from Sai Baba because his personal efforts had repeatedly failed, leading him to believe that only the Guru's grace could overcome his obstacle. According to Chapter 41, despite a strong desire, his attempts to read the Dnyaneshwari were always thwarted, and even a simple resolution to read five verses daily was unsuccessful. This led him to feel distressed and conclude that the reading remained 'superficial' because a genuine 'love did not arise within.' He rejected a trick suggested by Jog because he believed in Baba's omniscience, stating, 'Baba knows my inner heart.' He reasoned that a contrived signal was unnecessary; only a clear, divine command from Baba Himself could provide the 'love' and remove the 'knot/obstacle' preventing his spiritual progress.