Why did Balasaheb Deo eventually stop trying to read the Dnyaneshwari, and what condition did he set for himself to start again?

Balasaheb Deo stopped trying to read the Dnyaneshwari out of a sense of distress and failure after numerous attempts. Chapter 41 describes how, despite a powerful desire and even taking a long leave from work, he could not maintain a regular practice of reading the text. He found that doubts would plague him and he could not cultivate the inner love required for the spiritual practice to be meaningful. Recognizing his own limitations, he made a solemn vow, placing his faith entirely at Sai Baba's feet. He resolved that he would only begin reading the Dnyaneshwari again when Sai Baba personally gave him the order and, crucially, also granted him the love for it, thus removing the internal obstacles he could not overcome on his own.