What was the nature of Balasaheb Deo's struggle with reading the Dnyaneshwari?

Balasaheb Deo had a profound desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, but he consistently faced obstacles that prevented him from doing so. As detailed in Chapter 41, this struggle was unique to this specific scripture; while he could read other books regularly, his resolution to read the Dnyaneshwari would always be interrupted. Even after taking a three-month leave and going to his home in Ponda, the desire remained unfulfilled. Whenever he tried to read it, doubts would arise in his heart, making the reading feel superficial and preventing him from developing love for the text. His frustration grew to the point where he couldn't even manage to read five verses (Ovis) daily with any regularity.