What was the nature of Balasaheb Deo's spiritual struggle, and what resolution did he make?

Balasaheb Deo experienced a significant spiritual struggle related to his desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily. As described in Chapter 41, despite having a great desire and even taking a three-month leave to focus on it, some obstacle would always arise, preventing him from maintaining the practice. He found that while he could read other books regularly, his attempts with the Dnyaneshwari were met with internal doubts and a lack of love for the reading. After becoming distressed by his inability to even read five verses daily, Deo made a firm resolve. He decided he would only start reading the Dnyaneshwari when Sai Baba Himself gave the love and a direct order to do so, placing his faith entirely at Sai's feet.