What was the main spiritual struggle that Balasaheb Deo faced, and what were his feelings about it?

Balasaheb Deo's primary spiritual struggle, as detailed in Chapter 41, was his inability to consistently read the Dnyaneshwari daily, despite having a profound desire to do so. The text mentions that whenever he attempted to read it, some obstacle would arise, breaking his routine. Even when he took a three-month leave from work, he found himself reading other books but could not fulfill his wish to study the Dnyaneshwari. This failure caused him great distress, as he couldn't even manage to read five verses, or Ovis, with regularity and enthusiasm, leading to a feeling of helplessness.