What was the main spiritual difficulty Balasaheb Deo was experiencing?

Balasaheb Deo's primary spiritual struggle was his inability to consistently read the Dnyaneshwari, a practice he deeply desired to undertake daily. As described in Chapter 41, despite a strong intent, some obstacle would always arise, and his resolution would be interrupted. He found that while other books could be read regularly, when he took the Dnyaneshwari in hand, doubts would surface, the reading felt superficial, and love for the text did not arise within him. This failure to maintain his spiritual practice, even to read just five verses daily, caused him great distress.