What was the internal conflict Sapatnekar faced, and what resolution did he make that ultimately led to him receiving Sai Baba's grace?

Sapatnekar's internal conflict was a painful cycle of confusion and self-doubt. He was scorched by the threefold afflictions and could not understand why Sai Baba, who was loving to others, consistently rejected him. According to Chapter 48, he speculated that his past karma had peaked or that his initial argumentative nature was the cause of Baba's displeasure. Despite his profound distress, which made him sleepless and without appetite, he made a pivotal personal determination. He decided that until he received Baba's grace, he would stay right there in Shirdi with a steady mind, no matter what. This firm resolve to surrender and wait patiently for grace, rather than leaving in despair, was the crucial step that led to his eventual blessed encounter with Baba.