What was the firm resolve Balasaheb Deo made about reading the Dnyaneshwari?

After repeatedly failing to maintain a regular practice of reading the Dnyaneshwari due to various obstacles, Balasaheb Deo made a very specific and firm resolve. As described in Chapter 41, he decided to completely stop trying on his own. Instead, he made a rule for himself that he would only commence reading the sacred text when Sai Baba himself gave him a direct order to do so. He sat with this firm resolve, placing his faith at Sai's feet, believing that he would only start reading again, without confusion, when Sai personally gave him the love and the instruction to begin.