What was the author Hemadpant's personality like before he fully embraced the Satguru's greatness?

Before fully understanding the Satguru's greatness, the author, Hemadpant, describes himself as having a very flawed personality. In Chapter 2, he confesses that he was initially mischievous, talkative, cynical, and critical. He was arrogant about his knowledge, possessing what he calls a logic-driven mind and a bad intellect. He was always proud of his own wisdom and, as a result, was prone to argumentation. This self-description paints a picture of a man who was intellectually proud and skeptical, far from the devoted state he would later attain.