What was Sapatnekar's internal struggle with Sai Baba's behavior towards him, and what resolution did he make?

Sapatnekar experienced significant internal turmoil due to Sai Baba's repeated dismissals of "Chal Hat." He felt uniquely targeted, questioning if his past deeds or infinite sins were the cause of Baba's anger, especially when he saw Baba treating others with extreme love. As mentioned in Chapter 48 of the Shri Sai Satcharitra, he lamented that while others experienced a "daily Diwali of joy," his own forehead was marked by rejection. Despite this pain and his initial argumentative nature, he made a firm "personal determination." He decided that until he received Baba's grace, he would stay right there in Shirdi with a steady mind, a resolution which ultimately led to his profound spiritual experience.