What was Sapatnekar's internal conflict and ultimate resolution when he felt rejected by Baba?

Sapatnekar's internal conflict was intense. He was tormented by Baba's repeated rebukes of "Chal Hat," making him question his past actions and worthiness. He wondered if his initial argumentative and doubtful nature towards Baba was the cause of this treatment. As described in Chapter 48, he saw others experiencing joy in Baba's company while he only received scorn. Despite this profound distress, which affected his ability to eat or sleep, he did not give up. Instead, he made a firm personal determination: he would not leave Shirdi and would remain there with a steady mind until he finally received Baba's grace and blessings, demonstrating his unwavering faith despite the apparent rejection.