What was Sapatnekar's emotional state when Sai Baba kept saying 'Chal Hat' to him, and what did he resolve to do?

Sapatnekar was extremely distressed by Sai Baba's constant rebukes of 'Chal Hat' (Go away). According to Chapter 48, he felt singled out, questioning why Baba was angry only with him while being loving to others. He wondered if his past karma or his initial argumentative nature was the cause. This turmoil was so great that food and water became tasteless, and he suffered from sleeplessness. Despite his deep pain, Sapatnekar made a firm personal determination: he would not leave Shirdi and would remain there with a steady mind until he finally received Baba's grace and comfort.