What was going through Sapatnekar's mind when he felt rejected by Baba, and what did he resolve to do?

When Sapatnekar felt rejected by Sai Baba's constant rebukes of "Chal Hat," he was plunged into deep distress. According to Chapter 48, he questioned what past deeds could be causing this, lamenting that while others experienced a "daily Diwali of joy" with Baba, he was met with dismissal. He speculated that perhaps his karma had peaked or that his initial argumentative nature towards Baba was the reason. Despite this inner turmoil, which made food tasteless and sleep impossible, Sapatnekar made a firm personal determination. He resolved to stay in Shirdi with a steady mind and not leave until he had received Baba's grace, a decision which led to his transformative experience.