What was going through Sapatnekar's mind when Baba kept rejecting him, and what did he decide to do?

When repeatedly met with Sai Baba's "Chal Hat" (Go away), Sapatnekar was in deep turmoil. According to the account in Chapter 48, his mind raced with self-doubt and confusion. He questioned what his mistake could be and why he was the sole target of Baba's anger. He speculated about various causes, from his karma reaching its peak to having "violated Dharma" and become a "shelter for infinite sins." He also reflected on his own past behavior, wondering if his initial argumentative and doubtful nature was the reason for Baba's displeasure. Despite this agonizing introspection, he did not flee. Instead, he made a firm personal determination to remain in Shirdi with a steady mind until he received Baba's grace, showing remarkable persistence.