What was going through Boss Dharamsee's mind as he was being forced to take grapes he didn't like?

As Sai Baba continued to give him seeded grapes, a storm of conflicting thoughts arose in Boss Dharamsee's mind. Chapter 35 provides a clear window into his inner turmoil. He thought to himself that if Baba were truly a saint, he should know that he disliked these grapes and questioned why Baba would force them upon him. He was troubled about how to act, as he couldn't bring himself to eat them but also couldn't refuse. He even chewed some and pocketed the seeds to avoid defiling the holy place. This internal monologue reveals his skepticism, his discomfort, and his struggle between social propriety and personal aversion, right before the miracle changed his perspective entirely.