What was Balasaheb Deo's spiritual struggle and how did he try to resolve it?

Balasaheb Deo had a profound desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, but he consistently faced obstacles that prevented him from maintaining a regular practice. As detailed in Chapter 41, even when he took a three-month leave from work to focus on this, he found he could read other books but not the Dnyaneshwari. Doubts would arise in his heart, making the reading feel superficial. Frustrated that he couldn't even manage five verses a day, he made a firm resolution. He decided to surrender the matter entirely to Sai Baba, vowing that he would only begin reading the sacred text when Sai Himself gave the order and instilled the love for it within him.