What was Balasaheb Deo's specific problem with reading the Dnyaneshwari, and how did he try to solve it before making his final resolve?

Balasaheb Deo's main issue was that despite a strong desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, some obstacle would always arise, preventing his resolution from holding. According to Chapter 41, while he could read other books regularly, his attempts with the Dnyaneshwari were unsuccessful. Even when he took a three-month leave and went to his home in Ponda for rest, the desire was not fulfilled. When he would take the book in hand, doubts would surface, making the reading feel superficial and preventing love for the text from arising. His final resolve was to wait for a direct command from Sai.