What was Balasaheb Deo's primary spiritual struggle, and how did it manifest?

Balasaheb Deo's main spiritual struggle was his inability to consistently read the Dnyaneshwari. According to Chapter 41, despite having a great desire to read it daily, some obstacle would always come up, preventing him from doing so. This was particularly frustrating for him because he could read other books regularly. When he did try to read the Dnyaneshwari, doubts would arise in his heart, making the reading feel superficial and devoid of love. Even his resolution to read a mere five verses daily did not succeed with any regularity or enthusiasm.