What was Balasaheb Deo's main spiritual struggle, and what did he decide to do about it?

Balasaheb Deo's primary spiritual struggle was his inability to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, despite having a great desire to do so. As described in Chapter 41, whenever he attempted to read it, some obstacle would arise, or doubts would fill his heart, making the reading feel superficial and lacking love. He found that while he could read other books regularly, his resolution for the Dnyaneshwari would not hold, and he couldn't even manage to read five verses consistently. Feeling distressed, Deo made a firm resolve: he would stop trying on his own and would only begin reading the Dnyaneshwari when Sai Baba Himself gave him the direct order and the love for it.