What specific spiritual struggle did Balasaheb Deo face, and what was his ultimate resolution to overcome it?

Balasaheb Deo had a profound desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, but he consistently encountered obstacles that prevented him from maintaining this practice. As detailed in Chapter 41, despite his best efforts, even taking a three-month leave from work, he could not maintain a regular reading schedule for this particular text, though other books posed no problem. He found that doubts would arise in his heart, making the reading feel superficial. After failing to even read five verses daily, Deo became distressed and made a firm resolve: he would stop trying on his own and would only resume reading the Dnyaneshwari when Sai Baba himself gave him the direct order and the genuine love for it.