What specific spiritual struggle did Balasaheb Deo face, and how did it contrast with his other reading habits?

Balasaheb Deo experienced a significant spiritual struggle centered on his desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily. As detailed in Chapter 41, despite having a great longing for this particular scripture, he found that some obstacle would always arise, preventing him from establishing a regular practice. This was particularly frustrating because he had no trouble reading other books regularly. Even when he took a three-month leave to focus on this, the desire remained unfulfilled. The text mentions that when he tried to read the Dnyaneshwari, doubts would arise in his heart, making the reading superficial and preventing him from developing a deep love for it. This struggle was so profound that even a resolution to read just five verses daily could not be maintained.