What specific spiritual practice was Balasaheb Deo struggling with, and what was the nature of his difficulty?

Balasaheb Deo had a great desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, but he consistently faced obstacles that prevented him from doing so. As detailed in Chapter 41, this was a persistent issue, unlike his regular reading of other books like the Bhagavad Gita. Even when he took a three-month leave to rest, he found that the 'time did not come' for the Dnyaneshwari. The difficulty wasn't just external; when he did attempt to read it, doubts would arise in his heart, making the reading feel superficial and preventing him from developing a deep love for the text. His struggle was so profound that he couldn't even maintain a resolution to read just five verses a day.