What specific problem did Balasaheb Deo have with reading the Dnyaneshwari, even when he had time off from work?

Balasaheb Deo's specific problem was that despite having a strong desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, some obstacle would always prevent it. Chapter 41 details his struggle, explaining that even when he took a three-month leave and went to his home in Ponda, he managed to read other books but could not maintain a regular practice with the Dnyaneshwari. When he did try to read it, doubts would arise in his heart, which made the reading feel superficial and prevented him from developing a true love for the text. The issue wasn't a lack of time or general interest, but a persistent, specific block that kept him from succeeding in his resolution.