What specific internal and external obstacles did Balasaheb Deo face when trying to establish a daily practice of reading the Dnyaneshwari?

Balasaheb Deo faced both external and internal obstacles in his quest to read the Dnyaneshwari daily. Externally, Chapter 41 mentions that he had a job, which limited his time to the nighttime for spiritual practice, and even then, some unspecified "obstacle or other would come." Even on a three-month leave, other tasks took priority. Internally, the problem was more profound. The text states that when he would take the Dnyaneshwari in hand, "some doubts would arise in the heart." This internal state made his reading feel superficial and prevented him from developing a true love for the scripture, ultimately causing his resolution to fail repeatedly.