What specific challenges prevented Balasaheb Deo from regularly reading the Dnyaneshwari, despite his strong desire?

Balasaheb Deo faced persistent and specific obstacles in his quest to read the Dnyaneshwari daily. As described in Chapter 41, whenever he picked up the book, doubts would arise in his heart, making the reading feel superficial and preventing a deeper connection or love from forming. This was a unique problem, as he could read other books without issue. The struggle was so profound that even during a three-month leave from work, he could not establish a routine. His resolution to read just five verses a day also failed to materialize with any regularity, causing him great distress and leading him to a new resolve.