What specific challenges did Balasaheb Deo face in his attempts to read the Dnyaneshwari?

Balasaheb Deo had a persistent desire to read the Dnyaneshwari daily, but as Chapter 41 recounts, he was met with constant obstacles that prevented his resolution from holding. Unlike other books which he could read regularly, his attempts with the Dnyaneshwari were fraught with difficulty. The text mentions that even after taking a three-month leave specifically to rest, the reading did not happen. A key challenge was internal; when he would take the book in hand, doubts would arise in his heart, which made the reading feel superficial and prevented him from developing a true love for it. This struggle was so profound that he found himself unable to even read five verses, or Ovis, with any regularity, causing him much distress.