What personal motivations and internal conflicts did the author face when deciding to write about Sai Baba's life, as detailed in Chapter 2?

As detailed in Chapter 2, the author's primary motivation was a deep obsession with collecting Sai Baba's stories for the benefit of simple, loving devotees, especially those who had not seen Baba in person. However, he was also filled with self-doubt. He confided in Madhavrao (Shama) about his concerns, noting that having crossed sixty years of age, his intellect was not as sharp and he feared his weakness might cause the effort to fail. Despite these doubts, he resolved to undertake the work for the love of Sai, believing the effort itself would be a worthy spiritual goal.