What personal feelings and motivations does the author share in Chapter 49 regarding his devotion to Sai and the writing of the Satcharita?

The author reveals deep personal devotion and a sense of blissful compulsion in Chapter 49. He states that while silence is the best praise for the Sadguru, each quality of Sai makes him forget that silence, compelling him to share the bliss with fellow listeners. He considers love for the Guru's feet to be his "only true wealth." The act of writing is portrayed as a source of immense personal fulfillment; the author finds "complete satisfaction" in the repetition of Sai's name, contemplation of His words, and meditation on His form. He describes being prompted by Sai to start the Satcharita for his "own self-interest," indicating that the process itself was a spiritual reward that fulfilled his desires.