What negative personal traits did the author, known as Hemadpant, possess before he fully understood the Satguru's greatness?

Chapter 2 provides a candid self-assessment of the author's character prior to his spiritual transformation. It states that the writer, who would be named Hemadpant, was initially "mischievous, talkative, cynical, and critical." He was intellectually arrogant, described as being "always proud of his own wisdom" and possessing a "logic-driven mind." The text further notes that he had a penchant for argumentation and had not yet grasped the greatness of a Satguru. This description paints a picture of a man whose intellect and ego were significant barriers to the devotion and surrender required for his eventual task.