What is the author's emotional state in Chapter 45 regarding Sai Baba's physical absence?

Chapter 45 conveys a palpable sense of grief and longing for Sai Baba's physical presence. The author repeatedly uses the phrase 'is now lost to our sight' to describe the absence of the Sai-form. This form is remembered for its profound benefits: bringing eternal contentment, the enjoyment of bliss, and liberation from the fear of worldly existence. The author laments that the form which removes the illusion of Maya and awakens a sense of justice and morality is no longer physically present. While noting that Sai established His form in devotees' hearts before departing, the dominant tone in Chapter 45 is one of heartfelt sorrow over the end of His incarnation.