What does the author mean by laying his 'ego' and 'me-ness' at Baba's feet in Chapter 26? What does he want to happen instead?

When the author speaks of laying his ego and "me-ness" at Baba's feet in Chapter 26, he is expressing a desire for the complete annihilation of his individual self-identity. He explicitly states, "from now on, You look after Your own—there is no 'me-ness' left in me." Instead of his own will, he asks Baba to move him like a puppet. Going even further, he offers an alternative: "Or, let You Yourself become my 'me-ness'; take the experience of pleasure and pain Yourself, and let me not worry about them." This signifies a wish for Baba to completely take over his consciousness and existence, a total union where the devotee's separate identity is subsumed by the Guru.