What did Dev write in his letter to Jog, and what does it reveal about his spiritual state at that time?

In his letter to Jog after the Udyapan was finished, Dev expressed profound confusion and disappointment. He questioned how Baba could have "deceived" him and lamented that the promised visit had not occurred as he'd anticipated. As recorded in Chapter 40, Dev wrote that he had waited with great effort but received no "experience" or "proof," leaving him feeling let down. This letter reveals that Dev's spiritual state was one of doubt and a reliance on external validation. He was unable to perceive Baba's subtle fulfillment of His promise, showing that his mind was clouded by expectation and he failed to recognize the divine leela that had unfolded right in his own home.