What did Dev write in his letter to Jog after the Udyapan, and what did it reveal about his state of mind?

In his letter to Jog after the Udyapan ceremony, Dev expressed profound confusion and disappointment. As recounted in Chapter 40, he wrote, "How is it that Baba deceived me?" and questioned why Baba's promise to come had not been fulfilled as he expected. He lamented that he had waited with great effort but received no spiritual experience or sign. This letter reveals that Dev was in a state of delusion, completely missing the possibility that Baba had already visited him in the guise of the Sanyasi and his two companions. He felt let down, unable to perceive the blessing he had already received.